This is not you. This is you looking at you through someone else's eyes

This is not you.

You know your value does not lie on what someone else sees.




But you think it is.

You have learned to love seeing yourself like this.

You have learned to love the seeming feeling and sensation of being appreciated.




It fills and almost completes you.

But not fully.

Somehow, there is that something that leaves you still wanting for more.

So you go for more.

Ask for more.

Look for more.

Attach to more.

Until you fail to see

the fact that YOU are looking at YOU through someone else's eyes.






You are touching YOU not with your hand but with the image of someone touching you.




You are feeling you with the image of someone feeling you.




Your sensations and feelings are filtered from the eyes of someone other than you.



You are seeing the idealized version of you -

the version most want to see / prefer to see because it is easy.



Their image of you is culled from their imagination, not yours.

They think of you as what they think you ought to look and be.

It is an uneducated guess

but with already drawn-out conclusions that does not include your input.

They don't need your input.




They only want to see what they want to see.

What they think they should see.

They do not care what you think.

They only care that you think like them, see like them, feel like them - these make it easier for them to

make you think you want the same thing they do.



Do you?




Nothing will happen to you if you say No.

If you keep on believing what they tell you, nothing might happen to your life too.


But you can tell yourself that it is possible to bring your SELF back to you.

Minus the push and pull of your emotional clutter, you know it can be done.


You can bring yourself back to pleasing YOU.


Do find out

from whose eyes are you looking yourself at?


You do not need to think to be able to respond.

Just feel.

Touch.

See.

Hear.

Not through how you think someone else does.

But How YOU feel when YOU see YOU.

When YOU touch YOU.

When YOU see YOU.

When YOU hear YOU.


Then tell yourself, whisper to yourself what YOU have seen, felt, heard.

And maybe, in a glimmer of understanding, you will also understand why Megan Fox was fired from Transformers:

she expressed sincerely the tediousness of seeing herself from the eyes of 16-year old teens conditioned by Michael Bay - with the blessing of Steven Spielberg - to be narcissistic voyeurs.



She is no longer connected in any way, manner or form with the Transformers franchise because she stated the obvious.

Good for her.